Another week has gone by.
Time seems to elude me the older I get.
I have been feeling unsettled again - I need a new fitness regime.
Muay Thai seems to have lost its touch for me - I am still battling the reason behind my lost of interest and in doing so, have come to realise that I do get bored of things very quickly and easily.
How long did the gym membership last?
How long did yoga last?
How long will muay thai last?
And how long before I grow tired of attempting Bikram Yoga?
In my head, the reason to move away from a regime that demanded discipline and commitment seems a very whimsical one.
I have always been one that thrived on the pack mentality - the sense of comradery. When that is lost, it sends a trigger for me to look elsewhere.
So here I am, battling in my head - weighing the pros and cons to stay or to go.
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I always pride myself as a person who is fairly open minded.
I tend to be distant, cold and in recent years, honed the art of concealing my feelings.
I tend to form conclusions in my head before the other party has completely made their intentions clear; resulting in disastrous outcomes;
To have me reveal my real thoughts and feelings is not hard. I do thread carefully but in recent times, I've been left feeling exposed and vulnerable.
It's not a position I enjoy but such is life and eventually I will overcome that wrinkle in life; pick myself up, tilt the chin up, stick the chest out and trot on.
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I'm sorry I missed your birthday. It wasn't intentional and I hope this wish is not too late.
Happy Birthday, with sunshine, laughter, warmth and love.
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