six more sleeps,
six more sleeps,
Only six more sleeps to go!
Awhile ago I decided that this year was the year I would try as many new things as I can. More firsts, no lasts.
Being the MIFF season, I decided I wasn't going to let a good film go unwatched this year, with company or not.
Yes, I was a little apprehensive. Afterall, I'll be in the CBD, having dinner on my own before catching a film - alone.
What would people think?
But I realised, I'm no longer in Singapore, people don't stare and wonder why you're involved in supposedly group activities on your own.
Dinner at Chocolate Buddha - Blessed are those bench seats!
Onto the Forum for "Le Couperet", got myself a seat right at the top
only to be frantically waved at by a colleague.
A quarter of the patrons in the cinema now know my name and that I'm here on my own!
Great, people are starting to think I'm a freak! Give a big smile and go through niceities; move along - quickly.
The movie was hilarious, I even surprised myself with a few loud laughs.
But at the end of the night, I figured that it's only at MIFF that I'd get away with this.
I spent most of the afternoon today
Sitting on the study room floor
Surrounded by paper
Paper accumulated over the last 2 years.
Bills, position descriptions, appointment letters, pay slips
Things I should never hang on to.
They serve no purpose but only to add clutter to the table, the drawers and eventually my life.
I'm striving for a clutter free life.
The less items I have used to store things, the less things I will keep.
Clutter free, clutter free!
Whee!
It's been too long since we last spoke.
Has it really been 5 years?
The wonders of modern day technology, a few clicks and a familiar face looks back at me from my monitor.
Yes, it would be good to catch up again, perhaps in Rome.
Even if for a day.
I've always believed that I could handle whatever life threw my way
Well, at least I'd like to think so.
I could scream, shout and wail all I wanted and deep down inside, I knew that the lessons learnt would serve me well.
There were a few times over the past year where I chose to play with fire; a case of wanting whatever I could lay my little hands on. Unknown to myself, it was simply laying the path to my own destruction.
I now pay the price for it.
I never knew I could feel jealousy and anger at the same time, conflicting emotions that would render my heart cold.
I no longer shed tears - no, I now leave that for frustration.
Anger, jealousy and fear is perhaps best handled by ignorance.
Turn my back to it, what I can't see and hear won't hurt me.
Walk away as every step will only take me further from the source.
It's been an interesting week with different twists and turns.
I've passed the level 5 muay thai grading.
Received confessions I didn't quite expect to hear, made decisions I should have stuck to ages ago - an acknowledgement on my part that there are things I need to let go...
Finally given notice to work that I've decided to leave, definitely looking forward to new work, new challenges!
3 dinner dates, all of which went pretty well...
Got round to having a will done up - no, I'm not dying from some kind of terminal illness!
Made further plans with my end-of-year holiday.
Purchased a couple of books for good reading.
Marked out movies I'm keen on for MIFF - I just need the company!